After the merry-go-round stops, Harrison and I start back
towards the coffeehouse and our cars. He puts his arm around me and we pick up the
conversation about divorces, his three marriages - none longer than 10 years -
and jaded feelings. “It’s not all bad,
though, since ex-wives and in-laws make great characters.” I wonder whether dates are part of that
collection.
About halfway there, he turns me towards him. “You
are absolutely beautiful, especially in this light. I have been
having the most difficult time not kissing you.” He leans down and kisses me with a long, deep
kiss. After that we stop and kiss about
every ten feet. The air changes as the evening cools. We pass a yard with some late lilacs. The smell of someone's early season wood fire floats in the air. We finally get
back to our cars. A church bell rings 7.
“And here it is, dinner time. We should continue this date a
little longer and have some food. I know a great place for lobster and
sunsets.”
“I like the sound of that.” When don't I like the sound of
food? “Where are we going?”
“Oh, it’s a little place just north of town a bit.” Harrison
opens my car door. “You follow me and I'll get us there.”
Where’s this going (as if I don't know)? Wasn't I going to
take things slowly with this date and avoid giving into the mindlessness of my
sex drive? I should go home, make
plans for another date, and reign in this teenage-level libido which is, once more, taking over my common sense. “Sure. I'll follow you in my car.” Great
resolve, Jackie.
We wind our way up through the hills north of the Binghamton
area and he pulls into a drive leading to a large farm house. The house, white clapboards and two-tone blue and black trim, sits on a small rise facing east, the green grass newly cut and a stand
of evergreens showing behind the house. A couple of gardens have iris and the last tulips, and the dogwood trees near the house have
pink and white flowers among the small leaves. There’s no sign out front but I catch
the name “Allard” on the mailbox. The little devil Jackie laughs smugly from my left shoulder; the little angel Jackie begins a frantic tugging on my right ear. I brush off my right shoulder and open the door.
“Welcome.” Harrison
pins me in his arms for another long kiss and then pulls away to walk me up the
steps to the front porch. “I bought this place after my first novel sold
well. The past couple owners had
restored it, so I got a second divorce and settled in.”
We enter into a center hall with a narrow, curved staircase
and doors opening to two rooms on either side.
I catch a glimpse of the colonial period furniture and fireplaces in
each room and the setting sunlight and growing shadow through
the multi-pane windows. Large 18th century portraits and 19th
century landscapes hang on the walls. Instead of stopping, though, Harrison leads
me through the hall, past the staircase and the second doorway on the right
leading into a den with maroon leather couches and a large-screen television. Thinking
about dinner, I wonder where a bathroom might be.
Before I can ask, we end up in the modern kitchen that
stretches across the back of the house. I set my bag next to his jacket tossed on the polished tree-slab table and then step around the benches and chairs. “This is
beautiful,” I murmur while looking out the pair of slider doors leading to a back
porch, flagstone patio, and the sun just barely over the neighboring hill.
“Here.” Harrison reaches across the green granite counter
with a glass of white wine. “I hope you
don't mind I didn't ask what you wanted.” He pulls a platter of grapes and
cheese and a plate with two split lobster-tails from the refrigerator. He must
have been pretty sure this date would end this way.
“Will you carry this platter of hors d'oeuvres while I get
the grill going?”
I don't have any choice – although I wouldn't have said no -
since he stands there holding the platter out to me. We head through the sliders
and he goes down the porch steps, across the flagstone patio and over to the “grill,” which turns out to be a huge stone fireplace
with a large gas range attached. It's angled to the south of the outdoor sectional and coffee table that face west. Everything looks like it belongs in a Pottery Barn promotion.
I still stand on the porch holding the platter of hors
d’oeuvres. “Do
you want me to put this on the table up here or the coffee table down there?”
“Whatever you want.” Harrison starts up the range and then
gets a fire going in the fireplace. I start to set everything on the glass-topped table on the porch when Harrison turns around. “On second thought, bring that down here to
the coffee table.” Glad I made up my mind.
I set the cheese and grapes on the coffee table, sit down, and realize I'm sitting with my skirt bunched up under me. I awkwardly squirm around until I get it pulled into place. This skirt is going into the "only wear for standing up situations" pile. I consider
stretching my feet out on the lounge section, but then decide against it in
case he’s particular about shoes on his furniture.
Harrison sits next to me and sips his wine. “Mmmm,” he closes
his eyes and licks his lips. “Can you taste the subtle flavors of peaches,
apricots and green apples? It’s a 2008 Riesling from one of the New York
wineries.”
I try following his lead and swirl the wine while smelling
and tasting it. I have never been able to detect any taste other than "wine" taste, and I decide to fake it now. “Oh yeah, it’s got that smoky,
oaky smell.”
“Oaky? I would say
it’s more of a clean, garden scent.”
That sounds like an air-freshener or laundry dryer sheet. I
give up, take a gulp and reach over to take a slice of cheese. “Ooo, I like
this Havarti.”
“Oh, that’s not a Havarti.
It’s an artisan cheese. Hudson Red.
I love the intense, slightly sweet flavor and medium hard texture. I always try to buy from New York cheesemakers.”
Ok, so 0 for 2 on the wine and cheese front. Maybe I can do
better with the grapes; I’m sure they are New York State grapes. Instead of
saying another thing wrong about the food, though, I attempt to be more playful.
I spontaneously try to feed him a grape, but I end up smashing my hand into his
cheek as he turns his head at the last moment.
“Wow, I’m sorry!” I grab a napkin to wipe his face just as
he reaches up to clean his cheek off, which causes me to slip and smash a
second grape I had in my other hand onto his shoulder.
Harrison shakes me off. “I'll take care of this.” A quick
look of disgust crosses his face as he wipes off his shirt, but when he next
looks at me, he’s composed and laughs a slightly patronizing laugh. “You're so cute."
He stands up. "I better get the lobster grilling." I sit back on the couch and silence opens up between us. I might not be able to figure out the differences in cheese and wine, but I can tell when a date is threatening to turn sour.
He stands up. "I better get the lobster grilling." I sit back on the couch and silence opens up between us. I might not be able to figure out the differences in cheese and wine, but I can tell when a date is threatening to turn sour.
“There, these will be perfectly done shortly.” He puts
another piece of wood on the fire in the fireplace.
Just then the sun dips below the horizon, shooting rays into the sky of pink and gold and blue. “Look at that,” I sigh and sip my wine, momentarily forgetting the awkward exchange we just had. Harrison sits down again and puts his arm
around my shoulders. I feel him lean his face into my hair, and the tension
instantly fades.
“Will you stay for the night?” he whispers into my hair.
I catch my breath in mid-gulp of that garden-fresh Riesling.
I immediately swallow wrong. It’s one of
those horrible mis-swallows and I choke and sputter while waving off help.
“Are you ok?”
“Yes,” I choke out.
“I just swallowed wrong.”
“Oh, ok," any concern gone from his voice. "Well, we need to get the salad and bread.” He takes
the cheese platter and leads me hacking and wiping my nose into the kitchen.
“There
are glasses in the cupboard beside the sink,” Harrison says as he sets the
platter down. It takes me a couple cupboards to find a glass with my eyes
now watering as I try to hold in the coughs. I find a juice glass and gulp down some water, praying
it'll stop the spasms of my throat.
“I'll
stay,” I croak out.
“What’s that?”
“I'll stay tonight.” My voice is a bit squeaky but I'm not
choking anymore, except on my earlier personal resolve.
“Good; that’s what I hoped you'd say. But let’s eat first.”
Once more the magic fridge has a fully tossed salad waiting. Harrison also picks up a carrier with balsamic vinegar and olive oil, and a loaf
of bread. “Grab those utensils and plates, will you?”
All crises averted, we settle at the porch dining set. “This
looks wonderful,” I lay out the plates and silverware. I hope I don't
have any trouble with the lobster; I've used up my awkward moments for this
date. Quickly, though, we are deep into a conversation about his latest book
and enjoying the cool evening and the last of the light. A crystal chandelier I
haven't noticed hanging from the porch ceiling automatically comes on as the
evening gets darker. He was right; this really is a great place to have dinner.
We return to the outdoor couch and
the fire. I sit on the seat, carefully tucking my skirt underneath me, but Harrison stretches out on the lounge
section and moves me over next to him. Well, I guess I have my answer
about his opinion of shoes and furniture.
I lean against him. “I love watching a fire. As the wood
burns down, I imagine there are cities in the embers.” That might sound hokey
but I don't really care.
It feels like an hour passes, although it’s probably only
fifteen minutes, when Harrison tosses the back cushions behind the couch and
arranges the throw pillows. The seat is now the width of a single bed. “Well,
here’s something else that’s on fire that you haven't imagined.” Now that line’s
some really artisan cheese I think briefly. Then he is kissing me again,
pulling on my hair to raise my face. The light breeze was slightly
uncomfortable, but now I'm too busy mentally following his hands and tongue down my
neck to notice much. I'm very aware of how strong and muscled his arms are. I
try not to think about Stacey's comment about Harrison and students.
Suddenly I decide to take control and get rid of the feeling
I’m only the passive participant in this date.
“Here,” I push him back so he’s now laying on the pillows.
“I think it’s time for dessert.”
As I unbutton his jeans, I hear Liz Phair’s “HWC” in my head. I can't help
but notice his penis is more slender than Stanley’s, but it’s also longer. Ice
cream cone, Jackie. I lick my tongue up and around the shaft and look up at
him with the head in my mouth. His eyes intensely watch me. Am I doing this
right? Quickly I close my eyes – hopefully seductively – so I don't get
nervous. I ignore the fact that it feels more like I'm eating a corndog than
licking an ice cream cone and try to figure when he’s going to come. Should I
try to pretend I’m taking the chocolate covering off a banana? Suddenly he
groans loudly and I try not to choke again as warm cum shoots into my
mouth. So this is what something oakey tastes like. It’s definitely not a clean
garden scent. Without thinking I wipe my chin on his shirt tail.
He pulls me up to a sitting position. “I have a better place
to continue this.” He stands up, deftly and expertly tucks himself away, and completely
composed again pulls me up and leads me back inside and up the stairs to his
bedroom. Then he’s pulling off my top, my bra, my skirt, my panties, all the
while following his hands with his tongue. With an odd disengagement, I take in
the hand-made Shaker style furniture, and just as I start to wonder if he got
it all from Vermont, he pushes me back onto the bed and buries his head between
my legs. Forget the furniture, Jackie. There are more important things
happening here.
The next morning, as we eat breakfast, Harrison looks at me
over his coffee. “I really enjoyed last night, and I think we could have some
fun for a while. You need to know,
though, that I don’t really want a serious relationship and eventually this
will end.”
“Oh yeah, of course.
Me too,” I say sagely as I'm refilling my glass with fresh squeezed
orange juice.
I register somewhere in the back of my mind that our
relationship’s defining theme will only be sex, but then the afterglow of
homemade pancakes, bacon and lattes distract me.